This week I celebrated my 13th anniversary of
constant sobriety. What can I tell you about these past 13 years? The obvious question is, “How did I do it?” I
respond the same as many others in recovery; “I stayed sober through the help
of God and the fellowship of AA and friends.” But there is more. That word fellowship is key. Relationships are
so important. God’s people change me. Praying with others brings truth and
wisdom. How would I have known that I needed to think about my part in fearful
childhood memories in order to stay sober? Those things weren’t my fault and
yet it was important that I realize that fear holds me back if I don’t view it
as a shortcoming. Fear should not be accepted as normal. If I hadn’t heard my
sponsor talk about her own childhood, I might not have realized that I could
grow past those fears. If I hadn’t
prayed with my good friend, I might not have realized that I have authority
over my own thoughts. If I hadn’t heard another friend declare scripture with
certainty, I might not have had the courage needed to face more fear. If I
hadn’t listened to a song sent to me by one dear sister, I might not have stuck
with my faith that day. If I hadn’t heard the amazing story of new sobriety
that is happening to my friend’s son, I might have forgotten about the miracles
that happen to those who desire God’s help. Finally, if I hadn’t been helping a
drunk friend by listening to her on the phone, I might not have remembered the
benefit of giving as an important part of fellowship.
I could easily just
isolate and be by myself. It’s really much easier. But God created us to share
our pain and our triumphs. If I hadn’t had these God-ordained people that were planted in my
life, I would likely not have ever made it through even one year. And God sends exactly the right people for each year, and the right person
for each day. I have learned to see the great benefit of God-given fellowship.
He always provides. It’s up to me to take part.
