Here I go again - worrying about what others think of me. It seems like this fight would be over by
now. I’m 62 years old and I’ve had a colorful life story that’s now a book. All
right. It’s time to accept the reality that I have told the whole world my thoughts,
behaviors, and motives. The worst of them are out there. I’m hoping that
my weakness will give strength to those who are actively drinking, and to those who are already recovering from
addiction. I’m still struggling with learning how to be transparent. Should I be sharing my weakness with the public? I’ve been told that when I share my weakness, it brings healing to the listener just as it helps me when I
hear others tell their story of trial and growth. As I listen, I hear that I’m not alone and
I get ideas for how to deal with my own recovery. We all receive encouragement
to keep going when others disclose their inner battles as well as victories.
I have decided to continue to tell my story, despite
criticism, disagreement, judgement or discomfort because I know it
helps, and because that’s what I am told to do by wise mentors, and by God. I have decided I will tell myself the
following:
When I am weak, I am
strong.
Strength is made perfect
in weakness.
I will stand and see the
salvation of the Lord who is with me instead of shutting up.
It is time to fulfill my
God-given purpose and ministry more than it’s time to live selfishly in fear.
Costly things are
worthwhile endeavors.
I am rich in spiritual
fruit because I am obedient to recovery.
I care more what God
thinks about me than what the world thinks about me.
I am grateful for fellowship. It saves my life
It is none of my business
what others think.
I don’t want "leanness of
soul" again.
I don’t want to drink
again.
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