Those of us who drank or drugged often did so in hopes of
relieving disappointment. We had to learn new strategies for dealing with the set
back of things not going our way. When we were faced with our own needs not
being met, we couldn’t accept the outcome. Escape became our solution.
Learning new behaviors is often the hardest part of
sobriety. Deciding to ask God to help us surrender our will is the first step. I have to remember that it’s not always about
me. I can’t see the whole picture and often others are affected by the outcome
in ways that I don’t realize.
Waiting for the answer can teach me patience - if I let it. That
involves letting go of the outcome and trusting God. Faith is when I rest in knowing
that He is working, even though I have no clue what is going on. What is going on, God? It is okay to
pray this and it doesn’t necessarily mean that I don’t have faith. I can still believe
that God is working while I vent my true feelings to Him. How are you ever gonna fix this, God?
I’m struggling to believe. Those honest prayers can help snap me back
into resting in Him and His divine work. As I pray in earnest, He highlights
the truth that is often in my own words.
Outcomes that I don’t understand are the worst; It doesn’t make any sense, God. But I
have to remember I walk by faith, not by sight. Sight actually gets in the way of my faith because I try to make selfish sense out of what I am seeing. It is best to
just look the beyond the immediate distraction and tell Him, God I am trusting you, God I am trusting
you, God I am trusting you again.
For we walk by faith, not by sight. We
are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body, and at home
with the Lord. 1 Cor. 5: 7,8
