If I had known how good my life was, I would’ve behaved differently. If I’d had a clue how wonderful my family was, I might’ve shown gratitude. If I’d realized they each were fighting his or her own battle, I might’ve prayed more for them. I might’ve appreciated each one. I might’ve loved their quirky qualities that make them who they are. I might’ve been able to hear pain or question in their voice. I might’ve talked more positively, and judged less.
If I had known how soon time would be gone when my kids were
little, I might’ve stopped racing to accomplish meaningless tasks. I might’ve prioritized
the quality moments of simple fun. I
might’ve played more, and worried less about the daily drill.
If I had known how
much God was helping me on a daily, even hourly basis, I might’ve praised Him
for his provision. I might’ve listened as He was guiding me each step of the
way. Instead, I was wrapped up in me. My
problems. My situations.
Regret is an abyss of shame and condemnation. What do I do
with these torments?
Restoration is possible through God. God takes my regrets and causes me to see differently. All things are new in God’s kingdom. We actually can start over. We can gain a heart of compassion for others, and even for ourselves. We can show feelings that we couldn’t before. We can speak truth when it’s difficult. We can be the person God made us to be. We can have strength to move toward others. We can get the courage to disconnect from harmful behaviors. We can love unconditionally, and we can finally forgive. Those things are eternal and will continue in heaven.
He can do exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. (Eph. 3:20)
